My heart races and twists into knots, I try to swallow but it just sticks there. Thoughts race in and out of my head as I consider numerous reactions, all having a
Well, because fear was my constant, it was my jail. For so long, I have been a prisoner of fear and anxiety. I was held back from doing things I desperately wanted to because I was afraid of what MIGHT happen. I constantly focused on the smallest detail of the possiblity that something could go wrong rather than the large probability of enjoyment or success.
Fear controlled my life.
I did whatever other people wanted so as not to "rock the boat" or go against the flow because I was afraid to have someone, anyone angry with me. I did what i thought other people wanted me to do because i didn't want to even look at the posibility of disappointing them.
By doing so, I was letting myself down. Not only that but I wasn't living out the plan God had for my life. I was living other people's plans and it was messing up my insides (if that makes sense).... explanation: it was hurting my heart and destroying MY spirit to constantly try and please everyone around me.
Fear also made me hold back from being the unique person Christ designed me to be. .. I was scared how the world would judge me...
Phillipians 4:6-7 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus"
2 Timothy 1:7 "For God did not give us a spirit of fear bit a spirit of power, of love, and of self-discipline."
Stay tuned for part 2!